Under The Beautiful Sky Of Nganget (Memories of 4th IWC)

I couldn’t stop praising the almighty god for giving me the chance to join the 4th International Workcamp, organized by Leprosy Care Community of University of Indonesia. I met so many humble people in a simple and beautiful village of Nganget. I got a lot of incredible and unforgettable experiences with the campers, and of course, with the villagers.

Without knowing where Nganget is, without having enough knowledge about leprosy, I can’t believe I actually went there to do something in that village. I can’t believe that I finally got the chance to interact with people who suffered from leprosy. When I arrived in the village, I can’t deny that I was afraid that I would be affected by the villagers. I was even scared of shaking hands with them. But after I saw the other campers, their smile and their loosen gestures, I got a great courage in all of a sudden. I left my fear behind and began to act with my heart because I realised that staying 2 weeks in the village, working hard, and talking with the villagers would be nothing if I do that without feeling anything. It’s also amazing to share the same courage and energy with the campers, all out deh for Nganget! :D

We worked together with the villagers, making paved roads in rehabilitation center and also in the village. I was touched by the moments when campers and villagers laughed together during work even though our body’s sweating by the incredibly hot weather in Nganget. Couldn’t forget also the times when I was in Kitchen Police(KP) job (endless job). The times we delivered the drinks and snacks to the workers (watching the sudden smiles on workers’ face when we come haha) cooking, washing dishes, cleaning up the basecamp. Every thing we did it together~ And also every time we did home visit, I can’t deny how super nice the villagers were!!

Uhm.. I must say that, from the children and also from the senior villagers, I learned so many things about lessons of life, about how it’s important to be humble all the time, anytime, anywhere because actually we’re just like any other one else and will always learn something in our life to be better each day and to give to others. Lots of people keep on forgetting about this basic value of social life. Realising that lots of villager are disable because of leprosy they’ve suffered, I was shaken and it’s getting stronger (the feeling) I have to be tough like them too! Disability is not a reason for not doing something! So there’s NO REASON for me, you, and every one that’s fortunately healthy to give up to make our dreams come true! I couldn’t describe all the villagers’ story but everything’s written deeply in my heart. I promise that I’ll do what they asked me to (some of them requested me some things to do in life).
Aaaaah.. It’s like i want to show the world that leprosy is not something to be afraid of as long as we have the knowledge about it! :”””

Besides, I have great memories with the kids, too. It’s always nice to see them laugh, play, and do every thing they do. They’re being curious all the time about everything. I can’t forget how some of them were always trying to remember indonesian words to be able to talk to me because I can’t understand javanese (well, a little :P).. it’s so funny! I wanna take them out of Nganget if I’m able to do it (I really do hope so!!!!). They deserve so many great things. I hope they can be succesful in their future and ofcourse I hope that I can meet them again.

At last, I would like to say THANK YOU VERY MUCH LCC UI, project team, and all campers. Zillion thanks for everything we’ve been through together in Nganget, for every precious moment . Our shared emotions will stay in my heart. I’m so happy to be able to get to know every one of us!!! I hope we can always keep in touch for ever and after! J lots of xoxo for you guys!! Every thing happens for a reason and as for me who believe that there’s no coincidence in life, it’s very nice to meet so many great motivated persons like you! Not only us who learned from the villagers but we also learned to get to know each other, to understand each other. Dinamis banget kita! I'm so proud of y’all!!!! Let’s share our experience to others, let them feel what we felt under the beautiful sky of Nganget! Because what we had is not just for us, but also for the world!

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Lebih dari 2 tahun sudah kutinggalkan blog ini. Bentuknya ga jelas sama sekali. Template yang telah kadaluarsa, tulisan yang berisi emosi-emosi labil namun produktif dari kehidupan SMA dan awal kuliah, jujur membuatku rindu untuk menulis lagi.
Tak bisa dipungkiri bahwa materi kuliah Dinamika Pemikiran Prancis mengenai seorang feminis, Helene Cixous, telah berhasil mengetuk pintu hatiku untuk mencari blog ini kembali dan dipulihkan dari keadaannya yang terpuruk (lebay ga sih terpuruk? :P).
Tanpa berpanjang lebar lagi, dengan resmi kubuka kembali ruang opini diri ini. Semoga bermanfaat bagi aku pribadi dan pembaca yang datang berkunjung.

Untuk berbagai tulisan lama yang secara brutal mengoyak luka lama, aku siap untuk membacanya lagi. Bagiku, masa lalu bukanlah untuk dihindari, sepahit-pahitnya ia, melainkan untuk diberikan senyuman atas segala proses yang dilalui untuk meninggalkannya dan menjadi diri kita yang sekarang ini. KAMU HEBAT, DIS! :) #sugesti diri

Aneh aja

Kenapa menatap mata bila tatapan itu hanya harapan semu?
Kenapa palingkan wajah bila rasa merindu?
Kenapa katakan 'ya' bila batin meraung menolak?
Kenapa harus 'tidak' padahal hati mengharap?

Tak kumengerti cerita sperti ini.
Kucari hikmahnya lewat semilir angin kejujuran.

Dia bohong. Aku bohong. Kau bohong. Mereka, dan juga kita.

Tersadar bahwa semua sama,
Nurani kecewa,

Apa mau dikata?

Densus 88?

Tadi tiba2 speaker di kelas-kelas mengeluarkan pemberitahuan, "Bagi semua siswa yang tergabung dalam RAISSA(rohis d skolahku) harap segera ke auditorium." Aku dan seorang temanku, Eka, langsung otomatis liat2an, kayaknya sih sepikiran. Trus aku tanya ke dia kita ikutan apa enggak ya? Akhirnya aku SMS kaput RAISSA saat itu, Resty, dan katanya anggota RAISSA kelas XII juga ikut. Akhirnya, turunlah kami ke lantai bawah dan langsung menuju auditorium.

Dan pada saat kami masuk audit, RAME banget. Okay kami tetap masuk. Baru duduk *gak nyampe 2 menit, acara dimulai. Bapak2 yang didepan mulai ngomong, "Kami dari Densus 88 datang kemari untuk memberikan sosialisasi mengenai terorisme,..." Aku kaget dan langsung bilang ke Eka, "Ka, aku keluar ya" tak berapa lama dia juga keluar mengikutiku. Dengan nekat aku keluar ruangan diantar dengan tatapan mata pak wakasek yang kecewa ,elihat aku keluar.

Haha, di luar aku ngedumel bareng Eka. Ngapain mereka ngundang RAISSA untuk sosialisasi tentang terorisme?? Emang kami bakal calon teroris apah??? ga' sopan!!!!
Kesimpulannya, aku makin benci sama NKRI.. Muak!!! Pokonya masih mau hijrah.. Aaamiiin

Super Junior M - Blue Tomorrow lyric + translation

Dao le ming tian shuo hao bu zai jian mian
Zuo zai jie wei de dian wo yi ge ren dian le bei xiang nian

Dao le ming tian zhi neng rang ai ca jian
Liang ge ren de xiao lian tian lian qian bian cheng fan huang de zhao pian

Shen bian <>
Shi xian <>
Ba “wo ai ni” liu zai le xin di fang zai le chun bian

[[Chorus]]
Dao le ming tian ni jiu li kai wo shen bian
Dao le ming tian du zi xiang liu xin xu yuan
Xiang yi chang dian ying de wan jie pian
Wo men de jie ju ying yan lei shui de yu yan

Sui le yi di de nuo yan ping cou bu hui de zuo tian
Ke wo reng qi dai qi ji hui chu xian, oh no
Er ni shen ying yue lai yue yuan

Ai hai liu zai wo fang jian
Hui yi hai hen xin xian yi shun jian
Gan jue ni jiu zai yan qian

Shen bian <>
Zhe shi xian <>
Yi ju “wo ai ni” shen shen liu zai le xin di fang zai le chun bian

[[Chorus]]
Dao le ming tian ni jiu li kai wo shen bian
Dao le ming tian du zi xiang liu xin xu yuan
Xiang yi chang dian ying de wan jie pian
Wo men de jie ju ying yan lei shui de yu yan

Sui le yi di de nuo yan ping cou bu hu de zuo tian
Ke wo yi zhi qi dai qi ji hui chu xian, oh no
Er ni li qu shen ying que yue lai yue yuan
Mei you ni ai kai shi dong mian
Gu dan hui zhan ju mei yi tian
Wo zhan zai lu deng xia mian leng qing de jie bian
Na ge ceng xiang yong de di dian
Shi wo men yi qi duo guo yu de wu yan, oh


[[Chorus]]
Dao le ming tian ni jiu li kai wo shen bian
Dao le ming tian du zi xiang liu xin xu yuan
Xiang yi chang dian ying de wan jie pian
Wo men de jie ju ying yan lei shui de yu yan

Sui le yi di de nuo yan ping cou bu hu de zuo tian
Ke wo reng qi dai qi ji hui chu xian, oh no
Wo yi ran hai huai nian xiang ai de cong qian
Wo yi ran hai deng ni hui dao wo shen bian
Lei liu zai wo bing leng de zhen bian
An xia zan ting de shi jian zhi dao ni zai ci chu xian
Wu fa cheng shou mei you ni de mei yi tian, oh no

Wo ai ni bu hui gai bian
Wo ai zhe ni dao yong yuan


****Translation****


When it’s tomorrow, we agree not to meet again
Sitting in the shop at the end of the road, I ordered a cup of missing <>
When it’s tomorrow, we can only let love pass by
Before daybreak, two persons’ smiling faces become a yellowed photograph

Around me <>
Vision <>
I left “I love you” at the bottom of my heart and put them on the tip of my lips

[[Chorus]]
When it’s tomorrow, you will leave my side
When it’s tomorrow, I will wish upon a shooting star alone
Just like the ending of a movie
Our ending fulfilled the prediction of tears

Broken promises all over the ground, the yesterday that cannot be pieced together again
But I still look forward to the appearance of a miracle, oh no
Your shadow is drifting further and further away.

Love is still lingering in my room
Before the memory becomes real, in a moment
It felt like you were in front of my eyes

Around me <> 
This vision <>
A sentence “I love you”, I left it deep in the bottom of my heart and put it on the tip of my lips 

[[Chorus]]
When it’s tomorrow, you will leave my side

When it’s tomorrow, I will wish upon a shooting star alone
Just like the ending of a movie
Our ending fulfilled the prediction of tears
Broken promises all over the ground, the yesterday that cannot be pieced together again
But I still look forward to the appearance of a miracle, oh no
Your shadow is drifting further and further away.

Without you, love starts to hibernate
Loneliness will occupy every day
I stand under the streetlight, on the side of the cold street
That place where we once embraced
Is the roof under which we once seek shelter from the rain together, oh

[[Chorus]]
When it’s tomorrow, you will leave my side
When it’s tomorrow, I will wish upon a shooting star alone
Just like the ending of a movie
Our ending fulfilled the prediction of tears

Broken promises all over the ground, the yesterday that cannot be pieced together again
But I keep looking forward to the appearance of a miracle, oh no

I still reminisce the past when we were in love
I’m still waiting for you to come back to my side
Tears are falling on the side of my cold pillow
I hit pause on time until you appear again
I cannot stand each of the days without you, oh no

I love you, it will not change 
I’ll be loving you till eternity

Beyonce - Poison

*ga kebayang kalo kejadian di realita

You’re bad for me I clearly get it

I don’t see how something good could come from loving you
The death of me must be your mission
Cause with every hug and kiss you’re snatching every bit of strength
That I’m gon need to fight off the inevitable
And it’s a heart breaking situation I’m up in, but I can’t control

Chorus
You’re just like poison
Slowly moving through my system
Breaking all of my defenses with time
You’re just like poison and I just don’t get it
How can something so deadly feel so right?
I’m not sure of what to do it’s a catch 22
cause the cure is found in you I don’t want it but I do
You’re just like poison
My affliction, I’m addicted, I can't lie
Kiss me one more time before I die

Verse 2
You aint right take me high
Then that high it subsides
And my body flat lines
Then you come to revive
Wait wait wait I’m alive
But how long will it last
Will it all come crashing down?
How many doses am I needing now?
What’s the prognosis will you be around?
Or am I just another victim of an assassin that broke my heart down

Chorus
Baby you’re just like poison
Slowly moving through my system
Breaking all of my defenses with time
You’re just like poison
And I just don’t get it
How can something so deadly
Feel so right
I’m not sure of what to do
It’s a catch 22
Cause the cure is found in you
I don’t want it but I do
You’re just like poison
My affliction, I’m addicted, I cant lie
Kiss me one more time before I die

Bridge
It’s just not my body (No)
It’s my mind, you don’t know
How many times I told myself
This can't do (can't do)
And that I don’t need you (No I don’t need you, no)
It’s so unfair that I find myself right back in your care
And what’s good is that when you’re not always there
You know that for my health (my health)
You’re just like poison (whoa whoa whoa) x2

Chorus
you’re just like poison
Slowly moving through my system
Breaking all of my defenses with time
You’re just like poison
And I just don’t get it
How can something so deadly
Feel so right
I’m not sure of what to do
It’s a catch 22
Cause the cure is found in you
I don’t want it but I do
You’re just like poison
My affliction, I’m addicted, I can't lie
Baby Kiss me one more time (repeat chorus)

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Bali’s experience for this year by joining 9^th ICAAP. 6-9 August 2009

It all started with delayed flight which made us waited in soekarno-hatta airport. There, I saw a lady with anger in herself complaining to a man from cashier that she’s been waiting too long and finished with no result. She’s just like an iron. Round-round.

We struggled to get the flight as soon as possible even we were late. It supposed to be 13.05 flight, but at the end, we flew in 15.00 flight and arrived in denpasar at 17.30 local time-zone.Then, we went to our hotel, Nirmala. The other WPF delegates had arrived before us. That night, we just took a rest coz the next day we got many things to do.

The 1^st day, we went breakfast downstairs at 9.30, and we got briefing session at 10 after the breakfast ended. The briefing session pended at 12 , then we went to lunch before we continued the briefing session. It ended at 16.30 and then we went to INNA Grand Bali Beach Hotel for re-registration stuffs. We were stuck by traffic for minutes on the road. After re-registration, we went back to hotel at 20.00. we went dinner at a place where an old couple celebrated their anniversary. It did sweet but then a man.. a very confident man sings for them, you know what?? His voice was TERRIBLE.. I can’t resist my laugh!!!!! xDD damn.. the food was soooo fucking SPICY you can ever imagine. I almost cry. But I tasted a new menu there; fish steak(spicy++), daluman (just like cendol), and fish soup(which was the most spicy). On the way home at about 22.00, My stomach was very sick. I didn’t know why. It ended in the morning, precisely at bathroom(you know.. haha)

The 2^nd  day. We did rehearsal for the meeting. And a little finishing of preparation from previous meeting…

dah sampe situ aja.. tiap hari sibuk.. pergi pagi pulang malem selama di ICAAP. Yang paling berkesan tuh pas komunikasi sama norbert *********** (from france). ewwwwh~ haha. dia minat sama gua. NO!!