Aneh aja

Kenapa menatap mata bila tatapan itu hanya harapan semu?
Kenapa palingkan wajah bila rasa merindu?
Kenapa katakan 'ya' bila batin meraung menolak?
Kenapa harus 'tidak' padahal hati mengharap?

Tak kumengerti cerita sperti ini.
Kucari hikmahnya lewat semilir angin kejujuran.

Dia bohong. Aku bohong. Kau bohong. Mereka, dan juga kita.

Tersadar bahwa semua sama,
Nurani kecewa,

Apa mau dikata?

blog draft (tak terselesaikan)

Bali’s experience for this year by joining 9^th ICAAP. 6-9 August 2009

It all started with delayed flight which made us waited in soekarno-hatta airport. There, I saw a lady with anger in herself complaining to a man from cashier that she’s been waiting too long and finished with no result. She’s just like an iron. Round-round.

We struggled to get the flight as soon as possible even we were late. It supposed to be 13.05 flight, but at the end, we flew in 15.00 flight and arrived in denpasar at 17.30 local time-zone.Then, we went to our hotel, Nirmala. The other WPF delegates had arrived before us. That night, we just took a rest coz the next day we got many things to do.

The 1^st day, we went breakfast downstairs at 9.30, and we got briefing session at 10 after the breakfast ended. The briefing session pended at 12 , then we went to lunch before we continued the briefing session. It ended at 16.30 and then we went to INNA Grand Bali Beach Hotel for re-registration stuffs. We were stuck by traffic for minutes on the road. After re-registration, we went back to hotel at 20.00. we went dinner at a place where an old couple celebrated their anniversary. It did sweet but then a man.. a very confident man sings for them, you know what?? His voice was TERRIBLE.. I can’t resist my laugh!!!!! xDD damn.. the food was soooo fucking SPICY you can ever imagine. I almost cry. But I tasted a new menu there; fish steak(spicy++), daluman (just like cendol), and fish soup(which was the most spicy). On the way home at about 22.00, My stomach was very sick. I didn’t know why. It ended in the morning, precisely at bathroom(you know.. haha)

The 2^nd  day. We did rehearsal for the meeting. And a little finishing of preparation from previous meeting…

dah sampe situ aja.. tiap hari sibuk.. pergi pagi pulang malem selama di ICAAP. Yang paling berkesan tuh pas komunikasi sama norbert *********** (from france). ewwwwh~ haha. dia minat sama gua. NO!!

Apa ya judulnya? Curhat?!

Sebentar lg pemilihan ketua keputrian rohis skolahku.
Hmm.. Jadi teringat kisah sedihku.
ternyata hatiku masih sakit. Aku masih benci.
sampe detik ini aku masih berusaha menetralisir hati ini supaya bisa ikhlas. Please deh, setaun dah lewat.. Apa yg salah sm hatiku coba???
Sekarang, aku ga bisa mengelak lagi, tapi aku tetap mau sembunyi, atau kabur lah. Hhe

But..
Aku inget..
Aku masih punya amanah, aku ga boleh ngelepas gitu aja rohis ini.
Tapi tapi tapi..
Yak, tapi aja terus, dis.
Inget, dakwah itu ga butuh kita, tapi kita yang butuh.
Tapi apa ga peduli sama perasaanku?
Bodo' sama perasaan kamu. Toh kamu yang butuh. Jangan cengeng.

Nah, ini yang aku benci.
Semua minta aku hadir rapat ini-itu, silaturhm, kajian, dll. tapi apa pernah (kykny sih prnh) mereka coba ngebayangin rasanya jadi aku?!

Memang cukup unik dan aneh.
sejak dulu, baru pas angkatan aku kejadiannya begini. Tahun2 sebelumnya, bahkan calon pengurus skarang rasanya lurus2 aja tuh. Yang aktif banget jd ketua, temen2ny di divisi2nya.

Asli, aku ga pernah nampangin tangisan sedih aku ke mereka. Gengsi boy.. Apa ga malu udah ga kepilih terus mewek2 ke tutor? Lu pikir kputusan bs dirubah??? Lagian, SADAR, dis... Lo jg tar lagi hengkang (aaamiin).

Uggh..
Kacau balau ni posting.
Yang penting aku udah curhat.
Yoyoyy!
Maafkan aku.
Aku cm bisa ngecewain..
:(

jadi gila tamer hosny

Awalnya emang udah tersihir sama vokal si tamer hosny ini. Lama-lama jadi biasa aja. Eh, pas denger lagu barunya yang berjudul Ta3ba kol el nas, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah langsung melting dah! Musiknya tuh lebih modern gitu. 

Ya ampun, tamerrrrr.. Andaikan saya di egypt, dah tak uber-uber all about you. Mungkin ini hikmahnya aku di indonesia. Ga jadi fans yang menggila. 

Aku bertanya-tanya apakah ada yang suka tamer hosny juga di indonesia? hmm.. terutama buat yang arabic lovers. Tamer is so recommended! Check it out!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zoq9h5Oawc (ta3ba kol el nas video clip + lyric + translation)

Michael "Jacko" Jackson - Gone Too Soon

Like A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky 
Gone Too Soon

Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon

Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon

Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon

Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon

Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon

Gone Too Soon

Jacko, as you sang in your "Gone Too Soon" song, you're gone too soon. It's too soon that I ever imagine. Why it must be like this..

Rest In Peace, Jacko. You'll always be in our heart. The King of Pop.

(T____T)

Semuanya di protess

Adududuuuh. Diprotes again euy.

Naruh foto di website kena tegur. Katanya nanti diambil orang and di-edit jadi po*n*. Ga naruh foto juga diprotes sama temen-temen yang ga pernah atau jarang ditemui. Mereka pengen liat wajahku karena sudah lama tak bertemu.(hweeek)

Selain foto juga aku ditegur sama orang-orang tentang naruh nomor handphone di facebook-ku. Hadooo.. Syapa juga yg nyuruh mereka ngubungin. Kan biar mempermudah aj.Males ngetik-ngetik lagi. Toh syapa yang tau nomor itu masih aktif atau ga, en nomor itu beneran punyaku apa ga. Unik-unik yang protes teh orangnya. 

Dooh..

*speechless

Hasil Polling-an..

Yupz.. 

Setelah sebulan polling diadakan dengan suara yang sangat sedikit, yaitu 17 suara. Didapatkan hasil bahwa voter pada mau postingan tentang cerita pribadi gua.. Haduu.. Kagak nyesel apa ya dah milih ini.. Wkwkwkwkwk

Hmm.. Sepertinya emang ide yang bagus juga tuh buat nulis tentang gua. Selagi ide fantastis sedang tidak ada, menulis harus tetep lanjut walaupun cuma nulis hal-hal yang ga penting. kan blog gua. 

Hoookkkeeeehhhh.. :D

Nice idea.

Thanks for your participation yow voter!! hahha..

updated : Hasil karya anak2 XI IA "tata boga" 1

Wahahahaa..

Ini dia fotonya. Akhirnya diunggah juga.

Makanannya enak semua. Ada Sosis mi(lupa nama kerennya), Brownies Ubi, n Es campur yang ada eskrim diatasnyaa.. huaa.. ingin makan mereka2 lagi..

tetep berkarya ya anak tata boga..

Diriku hanya bisa memakan saja. Serta menghabiskan mi yang terlantarkan setelah digoreng pake masako. (pada ngikut kok) ahahaa..

*terusan: 

Alhamdulillah hasil karya kelasku jadi juara 3(seantero kelas XI d SMANSA)..

Walau hadiahnya tak memuaskan tetap aja kami senang dan bangga..

Waah.. I'm so proud of the great work done by all of my friends who participated in this occasion! You Rock, Guys! Love you All..

Nih Piagamnyaa..

(jeng..jeng..jeeeeng)

:D

ko' vakum ya?

huahaa..

iya niih.. ko' tiba-tiba jadi males nge-post tulisan? padahal tema-tema yang mau ditulis buanyak banget sampe bingung mau nulis yang mana duluan?! ehe..

kalo gini ceritanya sih emang harus tidak memposting entri baru dulu karena ujian kenaikan kelas sudah didepan mata dan seleksi olimpiade geosains juga nyusul. 

SO, dear followers and visitors..

Maafkan daku bila mengecewakanmu.

Tetap menulis, tapi ga di-post ajah kooooq..

SeMANGAAAT!!

(^o^)/

Wrong Suit

Hwaa..

It was embarassing. I came to school today with a shame feeling. At the very first place, I was confident but then it turned bad. I felt like I just want to go home. 

Yeah.. Today is a very historical day. HARI PENDIDIKAN NASIONAL. There must be a flag ceremony in this day usually. But today it was a non-sense. It’s raining all the way, plus lightnings and winds. Automatically there was no flag ceremony.

The deal wasn’t about the flag ceremony, it’s about the suit I wore. I must be on my “putih-abu2” suit but what I wore is the “pramuka” suit (since it’s SATURDAY and usually we wears it on this day). Oh my.. How confident I am.. I walked around the school, say “Hi” to many people I met.

The reason I wore that suit was because I heard no news about this day yesterday. Yesterday I went too school and I attended a class, which was arabic. Then I went to UKS (Unit Kesehatan Sekolah) and took a nap ‘coz I didn’t feel well. I was there with 3 of my friends and indeed we didn’t know anything outside the room. We heard no news at all. And today one of my friends of those 3 was absent and one of them wasn’t in the wrong suit (maybe she asked others at night), and the last one was in the same shame with me (and she was a committee for today’s event). Haha

But it ran very well. Not as shameful as I thought before. I can still watched my friends who joined the “cooking competition” and helped them to EAT those foods. (Love it..)

So, no matter I was in the wrong suit, I enjoyed today a lot. 

Suit does matter, but if in an occasion you are in the wrong one, pretend yourself as the role model of the show ‘coz the show MUST go on. Yippie.. :D

What a Busy Day..

Wow.. I am so tired right now.

This morning I went to my school to share with my junior about Debate. After that(plus zuhur), I went to a wedding party which held in a far far away location. I reached there with kinda struggling. My "Sister" waited me for about a half hour so I put my motorcycle speed to the RUSH mode. It's indeed I got sweat all over my body. At that time, I ate nothing. xP

And after I ate something in that party, with no "shaking hands" with the couple( 'coz at that time they're changing their clothes) and I was still in hurry, I went to the mosque for a weekly occasion(Rush mode again 'coz we're late). And after I reached the mosque, we went to a place together to attend another occasion. (NON STOP, baby!!!). Then, I went to a mosque for ashar.

I felt tired a lot. Felt like zero gravity(wew..).

When I arrived at home, what I want to do (if it can) was drop myself down to the floor. My head was spinning round and round inside. It's terrible. I can't stand it. Yeah, This thing caused by hypotensy. I don't know why, before I found myself in hypotension, I never grumbling and getting mad when I get headache. But after I figured out the cause of my headache (read:hypotension), I always feel that I'm weak and not healthy.  What a da** busy day today. Ughh.. I need to take a serious rest.

FYI, actually, sebelum aku beraktifitas seperti ini, kemarinnya maksudnya(nyanyanya...xP) aku baru aja selesai ngurusin sakit kepala hebat seperti ini n terkapar di kamarrrrrr.. eh.. kayak gini lagi.. heuu.. 

TETAP SEMANGAT!!!!

Curang-Curang Berhadiah

Wuihh..ternyata curang pun bisa memberikan kesuksesan.. gile beneer.. kaget banget ane..

Jadi begini ceritanya..

Dari bulan oktober 2008-14 april 2009 ane n beberapa temen ikut pelatihan Olimpiade Kebumian (Geosains). Kami semua berjumlah 20 orang. Semuanya emang pada semangat ikut pelatihan. Tiap minggu dateng, bahkan lagi belajar di sekolahpun yang dibahas adalah tentang geosains. Duh, pokoknya semangat banget deh.

Dan tahukah kalian tentang apa yang terjadi pada hari perang dimulai (seleksi OSN kab/kota)??

Dengan liciknya beberapa anak mencontek jawaban temannya (kebanyakan dari sekolah ane malah). Selain nyontek, mereka bahkan sempat-sempatnya diskusi soal coba???? en gila'nya lagi.............. Sempet banget beberapa dari mereka BUKA BUKU silabus.. astaghfirullah.. suasana ruang ujian pada saat itu tidak pantas disebut sebagai suasana ujian yang seharusnya. Ribut sana-sini, yang dibelakang pada buka buku, yang didepan bahkan bisa-bisanya nanya temen yang di paling belakang..

Masya allah.. Dimana malu mereka? Buat apa ada pelatihan selama itu? Buat apa bela-belain datengin tutor banyak-banyak? Tau ga'? bahkan salah satu pelatih kami itu ga dibayar SAMA SEKALI.. Apa yang dia rasakan kalo tau kejadian kecurangan ini? Ya Allah.. sungguh kasian kakak itu.. Teganya mereka..

Hasil seleksi sudah keluar..

Manusia-manusia curang itu menempati posisi 5 besar.. Sungguh.. Mereka bakal malu-maluin nama SMA Negeri *** Kota Jambi.. eh, kalo aku lebih tega dari ini, udah aku tulis nama mereka-mereka yang curang itu. Tapi berhubung aku masih KASIHAN sama mereka, aku tahan niat itu.

Mereka pasti bangga udah lolos seleksi tk. Kota, bawa nama sekolah n nama diri mereka sendiri. Kalau mereka masih bisa senang dengan hasil itu, naudzubillahimindzalik.. 

Ane ga tau mau ngomong apa lagi.. Nih hati sakiit banget. Emang semua dari kami mau menang, mau lolos seleksi tk. Kota, tapi bukan gitu caranya. Terserah sajalah. Sekarang mereka bisa senang n bangga karena bisa lanjut ke tk. Provinsi, tapi ketahuilah, dalam hati-hati mereka terdapat beban yang sangat berat dan memalukan. 

Inilah tantangan buat orang yang lagi dalam proses menjadi benar dan jujur.. >,<

I wrote this cuma u/ jadi pelajaran bagi kita semua.. Dan tentunya aku tulis ini sebagai bukti bahwa aku suka keadilan dan sportifitas dalam berbagai hal. Aku ga maksud bwt menghina oknum2 pelajar yang jadi tersangka dalam kasus ini, tapi aku tulis untuk semuanya agar dapat dijadikan pelajaran bahwa hal seperti ini kerap terjadi di beberapa tempat, berbagai macam situasi dan kondisi.

The Zenith, the Nadir, and the horizon

WHY ZENITH-NADIR?

Hmm.. nice question.

It all started when i studied astrophysics (one of subjects I must learn in Geoscience). A senior taught us about "How to determine the position of a star". There are 3 ways of "Tata Koordinat" and the one of them called Horizon. In this way,if we want to determine the position of a star, we need to know the pole spots. The first spot called Zenith. This spot is above our head. The second spot is Nadir which is located under our feet.

The first time I heard the name of those poles, I was interested. How unique they are. So I named my page as their name. Zenith-Nadir.

BTW, to find the number of zenith distance, there's a formula....

z=90-a

a is the height of star

90 is a constant number(degree) of this formula

Oh, my..

I'm getting confuse xP

okay, that's all. The background of this page's name.

ZENITH, NADIR, AND THE HORIZON

a mission accomplished

Alhamdulillah. Tadi udah bikin forum kecil yang membicarakan tentang unek-unek di organisasi. Organisasi ini emang lagi di kondisi kacau-kacaunya. Aku tegasin mereka sampe mereka terdiam semua. Ya mau gimana lagi.. udah pake cara-cara yang aman malah pada cuek.. yowes aku bablas aja. 

Tapi mereka ngerti kok dengan maksud aku. Mereka juga ngerasain hal yang sama.

Nah, setidaknya tidak ada lagi beban dalam hati. Aku udah ngingetin mereka. Aku ga mau organisasi yang ngebawa nama islam n tujuannya menggapai ridho Allah SWT ini jadi messy and ga sesuai dengan apa yang diinginkan.

Kalo mereka masih cuek, ya aku bakal nyantai aja. Toh kewajiban aku udah luntur. Pokoke aku udah pegang omongan n janji mereka masing-masing. Jadi aku punya jaminan dari mereka. (buset..kaya’ PEGADAIAN aja, diz) xP

Huff.. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED (-_-)a

first step

yaah..

blog ini dibuat sebagai blog ke-2 yang saya punya. berhubung takut kalo-kalo yang pertama itu kena terms of service..d wordpress sih..

tapi ni blog bakal keren juga kok..

there will be a lot of posts..

^^Y